I'm not perfect, I've never been and I'll never bee. I make mistakes and my life is like a rollercoaster it goes up and down and can change thousand times a day. This is now another down. I don't know why but it feels like all the sad feelings comes creeping up to me in the night.
This evening ended with another father problem, he got angry and made me cry. I don't know what to do his words hurt inside "You wont get far with that attitude" But what attitude I'm no angel and I can't control my attitude when tears are burning in my eyes, I can't be miss sunshine when I'm trying to hide the tears from you, I just can't.
I wish I would have an better relation with my dad but it seems like he's never there, he's always somewhere else, anywhere. I need a father but he only spend time with my older sister. Asking, wanting, craving.. her to come with him, to other cities, to restaurants, shopping clothes for her but what about me? why do I have to be left alone?
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